It will all work out in the end. That is what I am hoping. My husband admires me for my 'ever the optimist' attitude, but this comes with a massive price. I need to have faith in everything that I do, and believe that what I am doing is the right thing. Right now, I am in a position, where there are people out there who have my livelihood in their hands. Do I believe that these people are capable of handling things? Not really, but I need to believe in the truth and have faith that that is all that I need to go further. My only hope is that this dark cloud that has been cast upon our society will lift, and people will truly see the good in one another. Too many times have people taken advantage, and this causes a mistrust which hurts the greater good, and many great people become complacent, and 'set in their ways'. To those people I say, if you could possibly imagine, just for a moment, what your life would be like in someone else's shoes, maybe then your eyes will see truth, your ears will hear truth, your heart will do truth, and your life will be lived with truth.
So what do I do? The current situation that I am in has hurt my family, has been disheartening, and has been a constant battle of my faith in myself. I know what I am doing is the right thing and I have so many supporters (my husband, my mother, my daughters, my physicians and more) that have faith in me that I need to, want to believe that what I am doing is the right thing. The only thing is this is a hard spot to be.
I would love to discuss this, and let people know what is going on, but I know that there will be eyes watching everything that I do. I know that there will be people scouring the internet to find that piece of information that they need to deny the truth. I know this because, when it all comes down to it, all evidence points to one loud conclusion. Funny thing is, the conclusion it points to, for me, is not the truth. I know the truth, I have stated the truth, but my words have fallen on deaf or just tired ears.
My family's love right now gives me solace and strength. I hope that this struggle that I am going through right now becomes something that paves the way, or builds a pathway for others. My spirit is not broken.
As Always,
Happy Does It! ;o)
So what do I do? The current situation that I am in has hurt my family, has been disheartening, and has been a constant battle of my faith in myself. I know what I am doing is the right thing and I have so many supporters (my husband, my mother, my daughters, my physicians and more) that have faith in me that I need to, want to believe that what I am doing is the right thing. The only thing is this is a hard spot to be.
I would love to discuss this, and let people know what is going on, but I know that there will be eyes watching everything that I do. I know that there will be people scouring the internet to find that piece of information that they need to deny the truth. I know this because, when it all comes down to it, all evidence points to one loud conclusion. Funny thing is, the conclusion it points to, for me, is not the truth. I know the truth, I have stated the truth, but my words have fallen on deaf or just tired ears.
My family's love right now gives me solace and strength. I hope that this struggle that I am going through right now becomes something that paves the way, or builds a pathway for others. My spirit is not broken.
As Always,
Happy Does It! ;o)
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