I was out the other day, and I noticed a few things. Everyone is in their groove of back to school, getting themselves ready for the eventual time when their children are going back to school. I, myself, was not in that groove. Actually, when my daughter went to school on Tuesday, I was sound asleep in my bed. When I woke though, I was heartbroken. This was her last 'first day' of school. Next year, she will be in university, so it will be her first day of university, not the first day of school. It may seem insignificant to some, but it was significant for me. I remember all of her first days of school, right back to the very first day, when all the other little children were crying and hugging their moms and my kid, looks at me, smiles and yells "Bye Mommy." It was important to me this year, a kind of a end to one part and a beginning of another. On Tuesday, I missed the "Good-bye, and have a good day. I love you," which is the thing that I do with my daughter, every day. I don't ever want my child to think that I don't love her. Even when we are in a disagreement, my daughter knows that I love her. So Tuesday, I was emotional. That is all right, though. My wish would be that every parent would feel the way that I feel and love their children always. I know this is not true, but I can wish. There is more to this story. My daughter went early in the day although they wanted her to be there for the afternoon. She came back home Tuesday, so I guess technically, I di get to wish her luck and tell her that I loved her on her last first day of school.
Life is what you make it! We have always heard this, but few take advantage of this fact. Some look at their lives and believe that they are stuck in the rut. I have seen so many people settle into their ruts only because of the state that they allowed their brian to get into. They have convinced themselves that there isn't anything else worth moving forward for. They convince themselves that the excuses that they are using are valid and true, causing them to be forever stuck in the rut. Remember the little choo-choo saying, "I think I can, I think I can?" This is the mind-set that I am applying to my life. We are all in ruts, but it comes down to whether we want to stay in those ruts, or if we want to grow a little, and climb out of them. I never took physics, but I know that an object in motion will stay in motion, if the right conditions are set. Or something like that. :o) Here is a little inspirational letter to the person most responsible for the ruts that I get into:
I know that you haven't heard from me in a while. You/I have been listening to the same tape on replay, basically going through the motions. You/I may have found some comfort doing this, but the spirit inside of you/me is just bursting at the seams, wanting to get out again. I apologize, but I have broken the tape player. Now I know that this may upset you/me a little, but like everything in life, nothing is ever that serious. You'll/I'll get over it. I promise!
So where to begin. Well, I have enrolled you/me into some courses, just to get those old cobwebs gone. You/I are/am an intelligent woman and you/I deserve to do something for yourself/myself. You/I have given a lot of yourself/myself away to others and now it is time that you/I do something for yourself/myself.
Moving forward is the true motion. Sometimes there are bad things that happen in our lives, but time has proven that although it may hurt, it does not kill you. More than anything, life allows us to choose the things we want to do and which direction to go in.
Happy Does it! :o)