Why me? Why am I the one that has to have this illness, and why is there so many other people diagnosed with it? Once I came to terms of my illness and the limitations that I have, it became my responsibility to take care of me. I don't know how, but first things first, I made sure that everyone that I was close with, knew that I had Fibromyalgia and what that means for me. It is not easy to explain, but for the most part some of them understood. Unfortunately, for others, it is difficult because they are used to me being this strong woman who faces everything head on, but now I can't. It is hard to live up to the person that I used to be. So for my new normal, I am going to re-learn who I can be. "Anything is possible" is no longer an option, as I am unable to achieve anything. Somethings are possible is more like it.
Fibromyalgia is a game. It is a game no one wants to play and no one wants to volunteer to be a part of. It is an illness that causes constant pain throughout your body with unpredictable pathways. I can wake today with pain in my entire back and both hips but tomorrow there is only pain in my lower half of my body. It is an illness that forces its victims to hate waking up in the morning. I was never a morning person, but when I wake up now, I feel pain immediately. My joints snap and hurt to move. My muscles feel like they are burning or they feel raw. To explain to anyone what it feels like is not easy but I shouldn't have to, just know that it is pain, it is real and Fibromyalgia is a chronic illness, there is no cure.
This is the beginning of the journey that I am taking you on, so that perhaps by the end of this, you might have some understanding of how truly devastating this illness can be.
There is always hope when you have happy. There is always light when you have love. There is always strength when you have support.
Happy Does It ;o)